Howie Abrams from In-Effect Records and Freddy Madball celebrate 20yrs with the Black N' Blue Takeover

Howie Abrams from In-Effect Records and Freddy Madball celebrate 20yrs with the Black N' Blue Takeover

Tear Another Hole in my Heart!

Well, another hole has been torn in my heart. My Rottie, Cayenne, has taken a downward spiral in her health. I know that she has liver 13 great years, but know it's just about time to say good by to her.

Her quality of life has dwindled down to almost nothing. She is not eating, can't get up with out my help, lost a lot of weight, and falls dow frequently. I was reall hopping that I would not have to make the decision to put her down. After Trixie, I am still not over that. But I don't think she will ho on her own with out suffering.

So, on Saturday December 1, 2006, I will call on Dr. Bestie to help me lay my Cayene to rest.

I have invited some friends and family down to be there with her, she is a people dog for sure, and I want her to feel loved in her final moments.

I can not explain how hard it is to know that it's time to let a pet go. It is by far the hardest ting to do, and get over.

And as much as I love dog's and would love to have another, I don't know that my heart can take any more. We also have 2 Yorkie's, and I don't know what I will do when the time comes. I just know that my heart can't take any more

What a Shitty way to start the new year

For those of you who know me, know that my dogs mean the world to me. And Trixie has been with me for the past 12 years. The past few day's she has not been her self, difficulty breathing, not eating, does not want to go for a walk. So I took her to the vet last night and found out that Trixie has Congestive Heart Failure. When the vet uttered those word, I was instantly CRUSHED! I felt sick, and my stomach felt like it fell out. They took blood, and x-rays, and found fluid in her lungs and her heart is 10percent larger than it should be. There is no telling how long she will live. She is now on medication for the rest of her life. I can't believe how fast this came on. She was running and playing one day, and now she can barley walk down the block with me. Well I have to be positive about it, she and our other dogs have a great quality of life and get lots of love, so fingers crossed...... What a shitty way to start out the new year. I already hate 2006.........

Black friday

Black Friday, the New Holiday Current mood: amused Category: Life Well here it is, another x-mass holliday season is thrust upon us! Just when I thought it was bad enough that x-mass items were on display before Holloween was even over, the infamous "Black Friday" has reered it's ugly head yet again. First let me start by asking, what dumb ass CAMPS OUT over night in a Walmart parking lot??? Are you people really that stupid? First of all think abut what you are doing. You are sleeping in a parking lot so you can be the first one in the door to buy some cheap crap that the person you are buying it for probably does not even want! I love to watch the news to see all of you dumb asses who camped out trip and fall and get trampled on on the way in the door. Guess your dumb ass isn't getting that $100 lap top this year. And how good can a $100 lap top from Walmart be anyway? Lets try and think this through people! I know it's hard to pass up thoes once in a life time 4 hour sales that only come but once a year, but this time next year you will pitching a tent in the local mall parking lot to get that "Black Friday" sale, and I will be sitting warm an snug in my bed watching the news of all you dumb asses getting into fist fights over the new Care Bear doll, and getting trampled half to death and laughing, because all my x-mass shopping is done. And yes, it was worth spending the extra money on my non-sale items just to see you dumb asses making fools of your selves to "kick off" the holliday season. Merry x-mass to all, and to all a good night..... Ho, Ho, Ho

Gothics. When they're not getting their asses kicked, they're busy getting drunk and having sex with dead animals.

They give me diarrhea. What the hell's wrong with them? They always look pale, weak and sickly. Nothing a reality check can't fix. But no, they choose to dress up like french poets and walk around like vampires. Why don't you losers get a life and quit pretending like you're depressed? Maybe then people will stop treating you like the dipshits that you are, and you'll gain some respect. You know, I've done my homework. I've probably checked out over 50 pages by people who consider themselves "gothic." I've read over 20 definitions, and none of them were consistent. They're quick to label themselves asgothics, but they can't even pick a definition and stick with it. Instead, they allow people like myself to stereotype them by aesthetics. The bottom line is, that there probably isn't a universally accepted definition of a gothic because the entire movement or lifestyle (or lack thereof) revolves around just that: aesthetics. Sounds trivial and unimportant to me.

Don't get me wrong here, I have nothing against depressed people. As I come to understand it, most gothics aren't even depressed. They just act that way because they're cowards. Cowards afraid of dying. I almost laughed out loud when I first read this. Afraid of dying? Why is this even an issue? Well tough shit. If they're so afraid of dying, then they shouldn't have been born. Not my loss.

They're so afraid of death and dying, yet they smoke, drink and have unprotected sex. I know not all gothics are like that, but I don't give a shit about being politically correct. So don't mail me saying "On your page you said all [insert name of dipshits here] are [insert stereotype here]." Yes, I know. Nobody cares. My point is that gothics are shitty, and something should be done about them.

I propose that we build a giant cannon, gather up all the gothics, pack them into the cannon, and launch them into a brick wall. SLAM. No more gothics. Maybe then they'd have a reason to be depressed. That is, if any of them lived. They're all so pale and weak that a mere launch into a brick wall might finish them off.

I was going to talk about this girl I went to high school with that was a shit-eating gothic, but I'm too tired. Just take my word for it, she was shitty.

So it's been some time since I last posted to my blog. I will say I am a slacker for this. But in this new age of facebook and twitter, and mobile everything, does any one even blog any more? I don't know that any one ever did, because I never read or scribed to one. So I don't even know if anyone has ever read mine. In any event, I will be linking to my social networks for the reason that I can say more and go off on my tangents with my blog. It's not so easy to type up your thoughts, especially if they are long or need more than 120 characters. Tonight, I will be importing some old blog entry's from some other sites I have used in the past, so if you have seen them, you will see them again. I my opinion they have held up over time and are a part of who I am. so with out further a-due........